The Light

I sought a dark light
I hoped it would turn deep green
As I laid my eyes on it still
Maybe shades of welcoming forest

It was a long stare
My eyes had weakened
And my shoulders started to shiver
I knew that it was a long battle, that I hoped would end soon

So one day on my walk, I picked up a pebble
I hoped in humor that it would have a writing on the back
Instead I found a small insect
Dead and crushed while it was underneath the pebble

Was the insect the writing I sought?
I looked at the ground
With the other members of the insect
Kept walking around

One of them then started
To climb up my leg and then onto my arm
I said “Shoo you fool you aren’t allowed to walk on me”
And frustratingly scolded the small willed being

The live one finally landed on the pebble
Then put the crushed body on his own back
Jumped onto the ground
And disappeared into the nature

I felt a sense of shame for scolding the insect
When all it was trying to do
Was to reach it’s fellow member
And honor his passing

I did not find a writing on the back of the pebble but I found this
That before I become upset, I should always consider this
A little patience in time of frustration
Can mean the world of support, to another fellow living soul that is moving in its hopeful determination

“Open Your Heart”

“To trust you must open your heart. To open your heart you must doubt your fears. To doubt your fears you must believe in yourself. And so, trust yourself, so that you may trust the world, the friends you will gain in it, and all the other wonderful experiences and emotions that will come with it.”

S.O. 1/21/15

I Will See

As I weep “it” seeps out

My soul, my cry, my countless courages
And infinitely greater sensation of disgraces
 
As I feel “it” screams out
 
My nights, my days, my shining mornings
And infinitely ever more silent moments in between
 
The far reaching forests that I have once seen
They were burnt down in tragedy
Remedy, they taught me
But I could only see what could have been
 
Then as I shed my tears like a water drunk in abundance
They were there to comfort me
You will see, they corrected me
But I could only feel the long lost precious chances
 
All I can do now is to wonder
 
My laughter, sighs, endless gazes
And infinitely louder waves of truths
 
All I will do is pray
 
My soul, lusts, never resting doubts
 
And infinitely soothing melodies
Here to stay
With me